It has been so long ever since we posted something here. Yes, I admit that the distance between us are getting worse. Maybe none of us are trying to work it out instead continue to live like how we used to. /even if we don't like it at all. Who doesn't face problems in life? Who doesn't want to maintain their friendship like how it used to be? You know, not everyone wants unhappy things to happen to them. Wait, definitely no one wants it.

I'm sorry I can't be there for any of you. It is all about understanding and trust in between. Who knows it has changed between me and you people? Or, maybe it's my fault that I didn't try spending any time with you all. I'm sorry. But, I don't know what I can do with it. I've actually tried but I failed. I didn't want to let go this friendship. Remembering how much we used to treasure one another, it makes me upset at times when I think about it. No matter how many friends we have, the closer ones are the ones we need when we're upset, going through hard times. I know it all. See, you've said that you tried to search for people to talk to when you need someone and you couldn't find me, I can tell you, I actually felt the same thing the other day. To be honest, life has been very bad these days. I know you will ask why didn't I look up to any of you but just think and see, if I can actually share it out, then why can't you? Same thing. By the way, friendships last don't mean I am still close to them. It doesn't mean I still tell them everything. You should know what type of person I am. I may be sarcastic, loud and happy with them, it still doesn't mean anything.

No matter what happens, please just be optimistic in everything that happens. I know it's difficult to do so when you're facing them all alone. Someone will always be there for you, to support you. Just be happy, girl.

Love, See hui.

My feelings ...

Where are the JASJ used to be ?

Why we have JASJ ?

SIGH SIGH SIGH.

Do everyone forget each other ?

Do everyone no longer need each other ?

I really need JASJ , but seems like JASJ no longer need me.

JASJ is not about only one person.

Is about four of us. Without one of us , it will never complete.

A part of us is busy with SPM , yet we suppose to have time for friends

especially JASJ .

BUT WHY JUST DIDNT ?:((

You all are my bestfriends but nowadays ,

when i am in the worst condition , suddenly i felt i dont have ANY FRIENDS.

So sad isn't it ?

Phone with full of contacts but none of it.

Seehui , you said friends don't last forever.

Then how could you have friendship that maintain till now.

Why our friendship is not just like the friendship that maintain ?

I really wish i am strong and i can go through every obstacles myself.

But i just couldnt .

Everyone person needs bestfriend.
And why we didnt take put an effort to maintain this friendship.

Or you just want to let it being destroy ?
It is our choice .

And the choice is in our hand.

Words couldnt describe how i feel.

I am in deep deep pain now.

I wish i have morphine to kill the pain.

I wish i dont have tears and feelings.

Cause i no longer can bare every single pain i am taking now.

Love , Aiyee.