I decided to blog it out after staying in an empty post for so long.
A feeling asked me to write it out but another feeling asked me not to.
Didn't know why is it like this.
JASJ should be something important and special for four of us right ?
Yet , the feeling changes for me.
And i wonder how to overcome this thing ?
I used to find JASJ whenever i need people the most.
But now each time i want find somebody ,
i realised that i am lost.
Thinking myself should i find them ? Then ended up with a big sighh and
just keep it myself.
Probably you all just have at least someone to speak to ,
but for me i dont tell them much cause JASJ is the one that i only trusted.
I seriously have problems and headaches that wanna share out.
And the people i need the most is JASJ. But i just gave up.
I always need caring , comfort , advices , hugs from JASJ.
But till the end for sure i will sure give up.
True friends should never walk away right ?
Sometimes we meet we would just be like strangers.
I totally hate so much about it.
I feeling like asking you all , is JASJ not important to you all anymore ?
And asking , CAN ANYONE CARE ME JUST FOR FEW MINUTES?
I am just like lacking of attention. Damn it.
No , i am not. What i need for is just go back to like old times ?
No matter how far we apart , our heart still can close to each other.
The laughter , the tears and everything ?
Have you all forgotten we running in the rain before together ?
How nice the feeling was ?
Sometimes i felt , is like three of you all are close and i am the one who only being abandon.
Sometimes i rather just walk away silently.
I wonder , am i a part of JASJ. Or am i one of you all bestfriends .
Or you all just hate me ? Or just anything.
I am seriously seriously need an answer or solution.
Or else , i gonna gave up real soon and just pfftt.
p/s-sorry if my post just made anyone unhappy or dislike what i written.
